things i cannot recall

I’ve lost a friend. He’s my precious.

Saya tidak pernah merasakan kehilangan seseorang sebesar ini. I can’t handle this kind of feeling. Mungkin saya tidak akan pernah mengerti rasanya jadi dia yang tersakiti begitu dalam. Dan pernyataan maaf seperti apapun tidak bisa menghilangkan rasa sakitnya.

Tapi tetap, saya ingin mengatakan ribuan maaf ke kamu. Maaf maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf, maaf.. aku ngga tahu lagi caranya minta maaf. Sepertinya untuk minta maaf pun sebenarnya saya sudah nggak punya muka ke kamu. Dina yang bodoh ini cuma bisa mengutuki dirinya sendiri.

Di siang hari, saya selalu bisa mengalihkan pikiran dan melakukan kegiatan bersama teman. Namun, ketika malam datang dan aku sendiri di kamarku, pikiran ini rasanya ingin gila saja. Selalu bertanya: KENAPA.. tak ada habisnya….. Maaf :(

in your old room where we caught you
stepping through some old song
you said came from where your going
a lady read it in you palm
down at the 12th avenue market
the promise you will not forget
you are going
till its gone

screen went blue before i touched you
and my ride went home
all the photos came out lonely but we're not alone
talking of everything we could not hope
i was stupid of thinking of east coast
already now its gone

there are things i cannot forget
i wish none had happened yet
there are some things i cannot forget

we were stronger than the preachers
we were wiser than the wall
took our sleeping by the river and the beaches in your car
up where you taught me how to drive a stick
and told me your family secret
you were scared i was caught

why'd you stay behind packing for the trip
why'd you ask me to be the one
first through your lips
i was awkward and i could not hear
your body through my body's fear
we were going to hell

there are things i cannot recall
there are some things that would risk it all
but these are the things we cannot recall
these are the things i cannot recall

**Things I Cannot Recall (by: Blind Pilot)